Cancer sucks.

Okay, not the most profound and insightful of statements. Let me try again.

Cancer really, really sucks.

My mother developed uterine cancer a couple of years ago. She went through all the usual cancer treatments, lost her hair and everything. But she beat it.

Or so we thought.

On the afternoon of December 24, 2013 her doctor told her that her cancer was back.

It was not our merriest of Christmases.

We were in shock. We were devastated. And we were seriously pissed off that the doctor couldn’t have waited a couple of days to tell us – to at least let us have a happy Christmas.

I don’t know what it says about human nature, but it seems normal (at least at the time) to fixate on largely insignificant concerns when dealt devastating news.

This time round her cancer has been highly aggressive. It has not responded to treatment and instead has spread to her bowel, lymph nodes and lungs. Chemo treatments were doing more harm than good and have been discontinued.

She lives 4 or 5 hours away from here in Toronto, depending on traffic. I don’t get to see her all that often. I don’t own a car anymore and I can’t afford to visit as often as I wish.

I was planning on going down to visit for a week or so near the end of May, but she’s taken a bad turn and has been deteriorating quickly – I’m not sure she’ll make it til them.

So I’ve moved up my trip to this week.

I’m not trying to whine. I’m not sure if anyone cares to hear about my problems.

I guess all that I’m really trying to say is that while I’m going to try to keep to my publishing schedule, if I fall behind, at least you will know why.

I’ve been trying to keep a buffer of a few pages ahead, but I’ve burned through all those. I’d wanted to get at least a couple of pages done this weekend, but I’ve been having trouble concentrating.

So… please bear with me.

You’re thoughts and prayers are always welcome.

Stuart

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SNOW WHITE:
You should run and hide. Her father's the chamberlain and she's serious about what he'll do to you.

I'll find my step mother. Only she can quell the Chamberlain's wraith.
Just please, stay out of sight until then.

But thank you. I've never had someone stand up for me like that before.